Saturday 14 July 2012

"Gonna Rise Up Singing"

        As I said in my previous post,  This blog for me is about challenges and opening up myself.    I have a STRONG desire to step out of the me I'm seeing and embrace the parts of me from my past I have let simmer, gain NEW habits for happiness, also I'd like to burry parts of me I have no desire to keep anymore ... ( that'll be some challenging positing, but I'm promising honest...and honest we will see ...but let's keep that one for later)  


    This Mom thing I'm doing, is ever so amazing!    I have been truly blessed with what  I can claim are the two best darn kids a mother could ask for..  At two years old , my son is smart, sweet, opinionated, LOVES his sister,  crafty, sporty,  he's just such a little fireball.. Fitting we named him Keagan which means Ball of Fire...and then I have my Ainsley.. .. ( whose name means meadow )   Who is stepping not quite in her brothers footsteps but at four months she is showing excitement for the world around her, a love of texture and colour, and her smile... my goodness her smile..  She was born with a natural strawberry birth mark on her center forehead..  sixth chakra..  perhaps it's just a birthmark, but for me. It's a reminder  that she is wise, I see it in her calm and happy..and I know that it's my job to nurture and encourage them to live well and love life as well as themselves.  This has to start with me.. loving not only them with all my heart but being true to who I am as a person..and also learning from them,  these little teeny people have so much to teach!  I've learned so much from them in these short two years already.


 So My First Challenge...   as the title of the post hints.   I want to fill my house with music and dancing.... There are few things I feel I'm super good at... and these two are far from perfected talents.. but I enjoy them, and when we have joy in something, we have the ability to transfer that joy to others by sharing them.    The title of my post is from a song I learned in public school back in the days when religion was shared, prayers were read, and it was ok for my grade 3 teacher to teach us bible songs in public school :) How times have changed.      I am planning each morning as my kids wake up to sing them this song, that has stuck with me all these years and popped out of my mouth on the most needed occasions.. simple, happy, and  a reminder of what a new day can bring.. happiness , change, music, release of worries....   here is the song;




          Gonna rise up singing

It’s a brand new day
I see the sun is a-shinin and the rain isn’t fallin
Like it was just yesterday
And I feel like livin
Got a reason to say (-ay-ay)
Gonna rise up singin, throw my troubles away
Cause it’s a brand new day.

  So that's it.. this weeks goal.  Simple Perhaps.  But I plan on singing... sharing my love with my children.. and this positive message we all need to hear.  "Gonna rise up singing, throw my troubles away   Cause it's a brand NEW DAY"   
       "I Feel Like Livin'"   How about you?     Sing with me this week?..... 

    ~In Love And Light,
     Always Andrea

Friday 13 July 2012

Ones Quest For Sanity

     Here I am, entering the big big world of blogging.   My sad little attempt at forcing myself "outside" when I'm feeling stuck on the inside.  A little window into the world , out of my world,  into my head, and out of my head... One or all of those perhaps.    I'm planning on using this blog as a tool... a tool to dig into myself, challenge myself, share myself... really... It's the one place thats ALL ABOUT ME in this little house..  ok i'm sure others will be mentioned and my life is never or has never been all about me.. but this will be my little sanctuary. .. while children sleep of course.

   I'm struggling... somewhere I've lost me.  I know, I know.. so taboo and over used but hey,  say it like it is right?   I've been everything Mormon, I've been everything trying to be nothing to do with Mormon, I've been A "hippy", as hippie as I could try to be, I've been the party girl bartender,  I've been the lover,  the crier,  the daughter, the over dramatic teen, the over sensitive child, the second youngest of 7 feeling nearly invisible at times, I've been the listener, the tossed aside friend, the best friend , the "little sister",  bah... you get the point... Until  three years ago..  when I met A BOY.( i say boy, really he's in his thirties but really....) .. We were dating for a short ( too short)  while... and  then HELLO BABIES ...  ( whom I love dearly may I say)  So now here I am.  A MOTHER of two.. in TWO years.     That'll learn ya!    So this is me..   Andrea the Mom.  The lover? The party Girl? The friend? The beautiful? ... these are just some of the parts of me I'm hoping to find as I unravel the posts on this blog.     Right This Moment... the diaper changing, laundry switching, sweeping, swiffering, toy picking up, bath giving,  barely sleeping, crayola loving, muffin making, child tune singing, nurturing to my babies but non-self loving me .... is the person I see in the Mirror.

    You're welcome to read along, you're welcome to challenge me, you're welcome to share, and you're welcome to think reading this far was a waist of time :P     But here we are.. Welcome